It’s been 10 days!!yes 10 long days since I sat at a place and wrote !!There were sentences cozily weaving up in my brain every night just before I dozed off to sleep and then the next morning I would wake up with a rather blank drooling face, lost between the reality and dreams…Yes that was me for past 10 days.
The reason? I can shoot a many but my main enemy and rather only enemy is my laziness, gosh..to sit at a place and do nothing except drag the day! Phew definitely not me, people used to call me hyperactive and to become someone that I am not is not good for my health.
Hence I threw all my lazy unyielding behavior off the window, trust me it is just hanging out and would leech to me very soon enough but still I have thrown it for now, sat down, inhaled a deep round of chicken aroma, it’s Sunday and what is a Sunday without chicken! I smiled at the thought of devouring that in a few hours and started off, today I’m going to write, no thoughts of whether it would come out well, would it be presentable, readable, what would my talented fellow bloggers think of my work, the thought that tormented me the most was “Have I lost my talent of writing, can I even make a good sentence”..I know, I know it’s just my writer’s block phase that is exaggerated here.
But this is exactly what I faced all the 10 super sit like a log lazy days, on top of that the constant nagging of my mind over not spending time with my fingers, the not-so supportive brain that tormented me over my impulsive reactions that led me to sit at a place and not write, Like wow, I’m capable of being absolutely useless for days!!Huh..I really wished that this would be over, Oh I even thought of blogging with just few photographs so that the frequency graph would step up or else at least be constant but then what is my blog without my words, I could not post a picture and say that I clicked it!!No way, that’s definitely not “brewing words”.
Ow don’t make a face, I have dragged the post, but it is such a relief to let my fingers play on the keyboard and the words just tumbling its way from the dimmest chambers of my conscious, yes there is pop of lot’s of ordinary words, not a standard post with posh vocabulary presenting at its best, it’s just my mind on the page ..the days of letting away my words, hiding them with fear, skipping, procrastinating, it was tiring, totally exhausting is to do nothing and for the record, I have been busy all day with a click of unexpected riding, a long soulful walk ,under the shady trees, breezy morning, a walk to the library, with the person whom I wanted to spend time with, well well he is my neighbor, Bhatt uncle, he is 72 or 73 years old, he reminds me of my grandpa a lot and more than anything we converse in English almost every time we meet with a wisps of wisdom, a pat of appreciation and blessings too, I speak to him as a friend and we meet every day!!when I have to dispose off the wastes and the BBMP vehicle blows off the bugle , all the people from my lane comes out with their night dresses and a dustbin….yeah not the time to socialize but it’s great to run down two floors of stairs, bump into the gate and run for the Olympic and then few minutes of talk with Bhatt uncle is a great start for me.
And today we walked to the library; I met my childhood friend (I’ll save this for another post!)…loads of work and cooking and now typing!!Phew, long day and of course I bugged you too…Tolerate me as always
Until next post